The Crazy Life of Judi

20th March 2012

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My original plan had been to write about days 3 & 4 of my experience on the Civil Rights Pilgrimage. I still plan on doing this at some point, but now it’ll prolly be combined with day five… 

What has been on my mind though is how much things can change so fast and how much a person can impact your life, when you never thought they would. 15 months ago, there is no way I would recognize myself now, I think that’s a good and a bad thing. I appreciate a lot more, especially sleep… Kidding, I do appreciate that, but much more I appreciate the people in my life, because I’ve realized you could be having fun with them one minute, and they could be gone the next. Literally.

A lot of people I feel are under the impression that they would want to be there for their best friend when they were dying, or anyone close to them. I’m here to tell you all, no. No, you do not. When I saw Adam dying, I didn’t know what to do. We were good friends, I feel like, but we weren’t close, not close enough for me to be there with him and talking to him, but I would never put the ones that loved him even more through that. I feel scarred from that one day. And he wasn’t even someone I was extremely close to, and now that day has changed my fear from being alone to watching someone I love die. Being alone would be better any day. Cherish the people in your life. Just do it, you won’t regret it. It will be the best choice you’ve ever made.